HELP!!

hey God, what should I do?
I always feel so hazy, and it won't go away

I'll show You that I can endure any trial
but fate depends on You

I feel my soul, to take me Your way
I can't just stand still, I'm lost and stumbling

my feelings are just swelling
I want You to discover this

please give me a chance
God, help!

suffering is always so simple
I want to know the meaning of life

even as I struggle
I'll give it my best with whatever is left over

there's no helping it
I'll fold my hands together in prayer

PS:
ada seekor kancil yang ingin dikubur hidup2,
kancil tersebut sudah berada dalam liang kubur,
ketika tanah perlahan diturunkan,
kancil tersebut selalu menggoyangkan badannya,
hingga tanah yang berada di pundaknya segera turun kebawah,
akhirnya kancil tersebut tidak bisa terkubur dan selamat.

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my regards,
Rnd